Morgan Stanley SIP review

I participated in the Summer Insight Program held by Morgan Stanley MUFG on the 15th of August.  It was held by the Operations department of Morgan Stanley.  It lasted only for a day, while the SIP held by other departments lasted for 2 to 3 days.  I guessed that was because other departments were more important, or their jobs more complicated.  I was right.  Looking at what they do, the work seemed pretty menial and uncomplicated.  Although there was a lot of responsibility in making the transactions happen, I didn't think the job itself is that difficult.  A clever 12 year old might be able to do it.  The employees denied it, but I felt it might become completely automated at some point.  

Although there were many female employees, they were all kind of good looking, so the applicant's appearance may count in the selection process.  It's not surprising considering that the job itself isn't difficult (no former knowledge in finance required), and all of the candidates are from good universities and therefore equally qualified.  Come to think of it, the men were also pretty good looking.  

It's like a barbie world where these perfect kens and barbies work in this neat little skyscraper office to do undemanding jobs.  The employee whose cubicle we visited even looked like a play doll.  She was the face of the Operations department, and I could tell because I recognized her face from the company website.  

I might be allowed to join as one of the dolls there, but I don't even know if I want that.  I hate the concept of membership (I was never really allowed membership in any cliques when I was in elementary school), or entitlement.  Of course I have a sense of entitlement but I don't feel entitled because of the university I go to.  I don't feel entitled because of my nationality or race either.  Partly because I can't be proud of any of those things and also because it doesn't make any sense to be proud of an entity you just happened to belong to.  Of course you might have made some effort in entering a university but most of that is pure luck.  I only got into this university because my mother wanted me to go.  Other people got into keio or waseda or tokyo university because their parents wanted them to go, or they wanted to go and their parents and their socioeconomic conditions helped them.  What they themselves did is actually pretty miniscule.  There's no reason to be proud of an effort you didn't really make.  I am, however, proud to have submitted my assignments on time, to have been punctual in attending my classes, to have improved my grades, to have worked jobs, to have participated in school events.  These were genuinely my efforts and no one helped me accomplish them.  Well, my father did encourage me but he didn't force me or incentivize me other than with his approval.  I was helped by the fact I didn't need to work much, but if a student is attending a university they surely have some sort of economic security (moreso if the university attended is a private one).  I didn't waste money on frivolous things either.  

I want a job where I could be proud of my work, and use my abilities to the fullest.  I don't want to be just a pretty face, and I don't think I can be one either.  Some people think I'm pretty but some people think I'm not.  It depends on who you ask.  

But the main thing is that I want to be appreciated for who I am.  I want to be appreciated for my character and my abilities and the work I put out there.  

I wrote this piece in English because of the growing concern that my English skills are fading.  It turns out I'm doing okay.  

But this piece was more of a report than a "piece".  This wasn't creative at all.  I want to be creative in my writing.  I should write a fun story.  About a road trip.  Better yet, about sex.